My Mind @ 11:30pm

So I am currently sitting here watching A Cinderella Story (the one with Hillary Duff). Y'all the movie makes you evaluate life and fall in love with Chad Michael Murray, when he was younger.
You've got the humble, girl next door, the dream boy, the mean girls, and everyone in-between.
So it made we wonder...

What does God see as He watches my life story?

Does He see me stand up for what is right?
Does He see me as a servant?
Does He see me being the best me I can?
Does He see me always loving?
Does He see me make good decisions?

or

Does He see me when my temper wins?
Does He see me waste my time?
Does He see me when I'm weak?
Does He see me criticize myself?
Does He see me question myself?

Yes, yes, and yes.

Honestly, its totally mind boggling that He sees it all and still chooses to love me!
The mean, judgmental, sassy, angry Anabelle that I am without Him.
WHAT A GOD!

Sometimes, I lay in my bed in awe of the wonders and mysteries of God, and all I can do is say thank you. And that's not even enough to do him justice.

Those are the midnight thoughts.

ok, see ya.

Investments of the Heart

I was walking around my neighborhood last night with my best friend. We were talking about life, you know, those good conversations that make your heart happy. We were talking about how invested I should be in a new friendship. He's a sweetheart but we don't know how invested we should be in the friendship at this point. That got me thinking, what is my heart invested in right now? And, are those things good for me?

Investment
a devoting, using, or giving of time, talent, emotional energy, etc., as for a purpose or to achieve something

Anabelle's Investments

• Jesus
• School
• Travel
• Events
• Belle Rhyne Designs
• Family
• Sister
• L
• J
• D
• K
• A

So thats my list off the top of my head, maybe in order, maybe not. I'm not really sure. I hope so.

(the letters at the end are my friendships btw)

I've been thinking about my priorities, evaluating really, and seeing if they are good and in line.

Back to the friendship I've been questioning my investment in. I've been praying a lot really. I love my friends, I might be a bit too invested. 

But thats ok...I think.

yeah.

A Post For My Friend Here

Hey.
I hate watching you struggle.
I hate hearing about the things you've done.
I hate that you are so sweet to me.
I hate that Jesus isn't first in your life.

I was in the car with my brother last night, driving home from my birthday party. It was wonderful, thanks for coming. Back to the story, right before we left Starbucks, you said something that, well, was good and bad. What you said was good, under the circumstances though, it was bad. On the way home, I asked my brother about it. He said it wasn't that bad. Hey, newsflash, it's bad no matter what.
You are a new friend, but you're a friend, and so I love you. I love you, I pray for you, and I want you to succeed, just like I do for all of my friends. You can do so much more!

He tells me that you definitely have a relationship with Jesus, he tells me you're getting better, he tells me you'd be good for me and I'd be good for you.

Show me.

Show me you're serious.

Show me Christ in you.

-A Friend Who Cares, probably too much, But I Do


(P.S. I was really sad, like, I wanted to cry. But it'll get better. I know it.)